We live in a world that is continuously evolving every second. With that, our lives also keep changing, but most of the time we are afraid of them.
I know for sure I am. I have gone through some drastic changes in my life that didn't change anything physically around me but left me messed up mentally. It has been quite a while since I learned how to deal with them, but these past few days have left me doing a lot of thinking regarding the changes that are currently underway and what the future holds for me.
I understand that it's part of growing up and becoming a responsible adult, but I think that's what I am more afraid of. Completing one phase of your life and moving to the next is quite frankly terrifying, at least for me.
And it's not just one change at a time. Your life is going to take a turn. I am scared of dealing with "real" issues, like further education, a good job, a nice income, balance in life, savings, insurance, taxes, marriage, a new family, and kids. God! There is so much and it all comes all at once.
And while I am preparing myself for all of these, I am losing out on the things that have been a part of my life for so long that I no longer know how to say goodbye. When I reflect back on the last 5 years, I see that I am no longer that naive girl. I have matured tremendously and I have changed a lot.
And 5 years from now, I will be changed again, but will I lose myself somewhere along the way again? So many queries and still there is just one answer, you have to go through it and see for yourself. While I can't wait to take the first step to my next life phase, I can't seem to get my other foot up from this part of me.
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